Casio VL-Tone, sings in’t room, fills silence
She plays keys, to mourn loss of her friend
Died too young she burn’d out too brightly
There’s a star out there but down on earth
Her lips curl’d, at the ends, a slight smile
Her face static, always a fix’d grin
It helps her, she feels good, quick to laugh
Remember them who liv’d far too fast
Positive to take time for yourself
Preventing a repeat episode
Push your heart never end before time
Make sure others don’t burn out; give them hope
Category Archives: Poems
Hiding From Everyone
I want to express myself through visual art
Withdraw, withdraw, withdraw
How can I help?
Ask me once, I’ll do my best, again,
Ask me twice, I’ll take my rest, once more,
Ask me thrice, do it yourself, I’m done.
What is fun, is to help, to guide you.
What is done, is to listen, reflect.
What you find, is the mirror, yourself.
I’ll feed you, fill your mouth, for some peace,
From requests, and problems, I take home.
What is posed, a question, distraction.
Full of food, you complete your desires,
Turning in, you sleep sound, in silence,
Wrapped up, you’ll do your best, again
Black Cat
When a cat slips through night like a breeze,
With a pounce, it can land where it please.
Softly stalking its prey, it will creep,
Then it leaps with a bound, never cheap.
On the roof, it can balance with grace,
As it runs, it will set such a pace.
With a flick of its tail, it’s away,
Like a shadow that hides from the day.
Feed me
As they prowl and they pounce and they leap
With their tails in the air as they sway
Till they curl up at last for to sleep
In the morn when the sun starts to rise
They demand that their breakfast appear
With their soft little mews and their cries
Till you finally give in my dear
Yield, unbroken source of chaos
Through the Dao flows the Way, ever still,
In its calm, find the strength of it’s will.
Yield to life, and the world will align,
Like the water that helps undermine.
In the silence, the answer is clear:
Live with peace, and the Dao will draw near.
Dove Soap
My stomach is playing up on me
I need something to stop it repeating
Maybe a cup of peppermint tea
Technically tisane but who’s counting
Let me carry around my childhood toy
I’ll give it to you when we first meet
Trusting that you’ll protect my youthful joy
And keep me in mind when you retreat
How are these feelings of body and mind
Connected in one special animal’s love
To view myself as a beloved pet is kind
Sending my entire self a peace seeking dove
A list of things to do
Add tinkling of reverberating bells
Hold me over a bowl of steaming curry
Chick peas
Oven gloves
Snot sneezed into my elbow
Infected jumper for the wash
Reflexes
Caught a cold
Wash up the dishes
A bath for my hands
Birthday wishes
From faraway lands
Coupled with unrealistic dreams
And benefits for my friends
Offering nothing
Nothing but silence
And a pack of tarot cards
Never opened
Never researched
The regret and the nigh time memories
Anguish constantly being put back to the back of my mind
A haunting flute above an orchestra
Sounds pure and sweet in front of strings
But breathy and imprecise on its own
Gone are the days of wandering alone
What will get me out of my door
Recharge the battery
Of my spirit and soul
The Cold Escape
Wearing next to nothing
End this cold suffering
My head beating like drums
Caught up in urban noise
Send me away from buzz
Breathing in the free air
In deep calm walking those
Final steps sending me
Back to the beginning
Emergency Nightmare Tea
In the dark of your mind where the tick
Takes up rest, and the sun never shines,
There’s a sound to be heard that echoes
And echoes, the drum hits, the bang bangs!
So you rest, and you sleep, dreaming death.
You can’t wake, no escape, trapped tight
Under cloth, over pillows, you stir.
Making tea, making tea, making tea.
Big Moor
When tha walks o’er the moor, and the deer run away,
Wi’ the heath under foot, and the sky looms so grey,
Tha hears in the distance the curlew’s lone cry,
Wi’ the bracken and heather all brown ’neath the sky.
The rain starts to fall, like a drum on the stone,
And the moor feels as old as time all alone.
Why?
Right now the world is ending
For some one trapped in war
A new beginning is happening
For a child just being born
Both are screaming for their life
At either end of a spectrum
United by some strife
And hope where they can find some
An opportunity comes
To give purpose and meaning
So if you are picking the crumbs
Take pride in that spring cleaning
Time plays a changing tune
Do we forget the dance
Understood by the moon
You can take your chance
Oral Hygiene
Chattering in the frozen breeze that killed my uncle
They have said some awful things
But they’ve been there for those that I love
Always balanced in greyscale morality
I save time for my faithful replacement
Just wooden teeth
You make me smile sometimes
When my face hasn’t felt movement
You are there
You make me want to show everything I have
When I haven’t done everything I could have
You remind me to show
My just wooden teeth
Take a moment to just reflect
Sometimes there is no need to respond
A flash of anger is well expressed
Through a creative outlet
Think about if what you want to say is what you mean
Carve out answers in experience not in yourself
With your just wooden teeth
What is it like in space?
Well you should already know
You are on Earth surrounded by a great expanse
With the courage of eight billion
You are not alone
Even if you lost it all and all you have is
Just wooden teeth
Family doesn’t last forever
So I use tools to compile a useful collection
A bunch of people trying to do what they can
When the world is ending inside their minds
I send controlled and pitched air to their ears
Through my just wooden teeth
My Grain
head buzz, )!#^=¥
bones..}\+ bang—-/
siren scream]]]]]~<
alarms cry;;;;;( on ,,,& on
thud’’’€ fuck i hit my &@£$%}+ head
throb—:::( pulse” pain)({{{..,,
lights burn%%*%
mind;;; swirls~~~~
aura cage[][][]
instant rage////&ӣ
nights in }{^^^^^
lights dim•
Limited Vocabulary
Waves crash, waves rise,
Hearts drift, hearts collide.
Sun fades, sun returns,
Over water, time burns.
Dreams whisper, softly speak,
Dreams linger, softly seek.
Hearts breathe, waves still call,
Over water, time stands tall.
Call waves, call hearts, sun burns, seek water,
Speak over, softly breathe, rise dreams, waves water.
Still time, water seek,
Softly call, whisper speak,
Water drift, dreams return,
Waves collide, over burns.
Tall hearts, tall dreams, whisper water, hearts speak,
Over water, over sun, still breathe, still seek.
Xmas Card
Dear Friend
Happy Christmas
May 2025 be 5 months into next year
Love from me
vinnie gar
a pickle tide seaside
laps home over my nakedness
i feel vinegar in every fold
as i shrivel deliciously
out of anti aging serum
grumpy donkey
the haws of a twisty bush
scratch my tired skin
i need to hydrate
bad soup
i can see green bits in my soup
there’s mush and crunch
slop and water mixed together
grainy texture
stringy abrasive teeth itchers
it’s a bit hot to really taste
but it’s here now and impolite to leave
don’t get me wrong
i want to go
this soup is really bad
string bean
babe, wake up
IT’S TIME TO EAT!
garlic stem whiplash
chop those onions
shed those tears
shed those tears all over town
i have a huge knife
chopping chillis
don’t rub your eyes
these are spicy
splash!
sizzle!
fry!
i have been
in the kitchen
all day long
FUCKING ENJOY IT!
A Blackout Poem (Agnes Grey)
My pupils see fine weather.
You know I never tell,
Pretend to me:
They animated a poor drawing
Some music however
Returned glee to me
The year is dying
Tired leaves droop
Dropping down
She’s gone now
Left me here
Daily loop
Same old town
Don’t know how
We’ll lose fear
Back bent stoop
Resting frown
Solemn vow
Keep that dear
unrelated miscellaneous
blue acorns turned grey by the wind
double dose of kombucha with extra bacteria
an armful of blankets dampened by clothes from the washer
disco circles spinning whilst music goes around and around my mind
tent poles for tarpaulins and bivvy sacks for sleeping in the wild
a cat called oscar whose brother has gone missing
granular pieces of chopped up sounds
gentle footsteps of a spider on a vertical wall
sixteen toasted sandwiches each slightly warmer than the last
a handful of ducks and a lonely goose in the melted section of a frozen pond
oblongs and arcs in different colours on a half painted canvas
a frown from a tired and stressed menopausal person
three reddish/brown bricks kept for a day when an odd brick would be handy
a cotton towel that needs awash but is still fairly soft
Song for the end of summer
The stream had almost dried up
It was usually a babbling brook
Yet the days were so long
And I could hear this new song
Sung by the rocks and the fishes
Summer had granted all my wishes
Yet as the nights drew in
I felt my heart sing
Autumn will be here soon enough
Because it’s raining lint and fluff
A nice jumper to pullover my head
Some actual darkness so I can stay in bed
All I want is for you to be free
And to light the fire inside of me
I need some warming food
To keep us in this mood
Treacle and pumpkin
Ginger and spice
Roast potato with herbs
A sweetness so nice
Instadeath by TW and John
Alone, walking down the alley
Rain dripping off an overhanging branch
Red light spills from a passing police car
Casting a shadow that climbs the wall
The searing siren slowly dies
As an eerie sense tickles my spine
A clap of thunder deafens my ears
I look to the safety of my phone
I can feel all my boundaries crashing down Followers go up but my smile becomes a frown
All I wanted was to feel I was watched
Only I’m concerned as likes get notched
I look around but no one’s there
Although this feels like a real nightmare
Something’s out there I cannot see
An evil presence creeping up on me
At the end of the alley is an open field
Such wide open space would be like a shield
Lightning strikes growing fears
Briefly shines on my crimson tears
Someone’s around that much I know
I can get to safety if I go
An arm on my shoulder, I scream and cry!
Who has been following me and will I die?
we live for agony (yeah but me and who?)
i still want you
i need you in my life
i feel your smile
powering my heart
you say you are looking past your best
yet my key still fits in your lock
you say you’ll put us to the test
yet you’ve never put my head upon the block
you used to cry out all the time
but now you’re older you’re doing just fine
you’ve grown up in space and you gave up all your crime
it took an age but we got you across that borderline
i still want you
i need you in my life
i feel your smile
powering my heart
sing your favourite song
let me sing along
let’s be together
now and forever
i love you
Fine Motor Control
a steaming hot cup of tea
precariously
balanced on my tender knee
ps. insulated mug
a moment too late to find the alternate timeline
tin glazed sun beats the pavement,
flushed face, sat on a bench,
lipstick on the teacup’s edge,
a gentle breeze flutters a napkin off the table.
who was on this seat before me?
tales from the kitchen
uncoated pan
clang and bang
processed fats
cat caught rats
what is good food
for your mood
for my friend
a treat to send
washing up bowl
aquarium shoal
home for fish
is not on a dish
kitchen wizard
freezer blizzard
cold cold meals
cheap cheap deals
eating a plant
having a rant
meat eating vet
around my pet
Purple Mutant Summer (inspired in part by Gorky’s Zygotic Mynci)
Purple mutant summer arrives with oppressive heat.
Roars of thunder echo across the land with authority.
Heightened emotions and free admission rollercoasters for all.
Until the sun sets accompanied by chirrups and the last buzz of the day.
All I can think of is production for him in the purple mutant summer.
All I know is working til breakpoint in the purple mutant summer.
All I want is capital and inequality in the purple mutant summer.
He pollutes our skies and burns our forests.
Sucks the ground dry and turns the sea to plastic.
He says he will make me rich if I pray to him and worship.
But I never ever see him in purple mutant summer.
I am trapped at home.
Silent and scared.
The storm is still going.
Our grievances unaired.
My cat can help me
As the trumpeter weeps
Meows in their sleep again
Screaming GET OUT OF MY DREAMS!
Brain Rot
Rockin that skibidi ohio rizz
Gonna show my gyatt
Coz I slay, I got cake, an’ I ate
I’m so pookie, I got aura
That shit bussin’
First Love
I need to drown in your smile again
Your beauty untouched by cynicism
Don’t let me grind you down
My guilt and anxiety
Cleaves at me
Silently
Unwanted thievery
As I learned your ways
You taught me hope
And hope lifts me up
For that day tomorrow
That day that never comes
Stunned into inaction
A feeble attempt at living
You’d call it genuine
When I’d ruin the party
A horse walks past my kitchen
After the apples on my trees
You might’ve cooked for me
If I were a boy again
There’d be no problem
Upsetting at the table
Your undying heart never left me
I sank into myself
With those fragments I stole
Your sparkle and spirit
Saves me from myself
Always indebted
Always yours
Scissored Words
Lightning is lightening, briefly
Getting wet is a good start if you want to dry off
This vacuum only has one gear, MAX
Seven cynical succubi seduced me into having an evening cup of tea. No sleep. Shit.
She gives me that kitchen sinking feeling
The most effective steering mechanism of a boat is a Potentilla
Thematics example: Sound/Physical Feel/Emotional Feelings
The plate fell and screamed itself to pieces on the hard kitchen floor.
Her soft heart couldn’t take it anymore so it sobbed through the night.
She hated the way she looked even though she was beautiful when happy.
But she was rarely happy, her face was silent like solid stone.
All she wanted was some loud attitude, a confidence to lift her smile.
The gentle whisper of self love to melt the icy critic within.
She wanted the love she gave to her chosen few, all she could hear was sirens.
So she screamed like the plate to build herself again with a firmer foundation.
Seasonal Empathy
narcissist hailstones
bounce once and melt in the sun
winter in summer
Notifications off
Gimme those dark lights
Play them silent sounds
Don’t call me
I’m vibin’
With you in the kitchen of primary colours
All of a sudden I collapsed
Fairies around my head
Blue birds in my beard
A fleshy bag on the floor
Leaking fluid a silhouette
In the sun rays upon the tiles
I’m sure one day you’ll be there
To pick me up and sit me down
My red number one fan
Far away in the sub tropics
Eat your favourite food
That will make me happy
United by cats and sadness
We are twins separated
By six thousand green miles
And only our waking lives
Thank you for all your love
Thank you for your patience
Kitchen Time Travel
Wassup, my guy?
This kitchen stinks,
Thoust no selfe respect,
Clean up bet, for if thee doth not,
Thou shalt rot.
Spores flye aloft the aire,
Forthy blyght dost linger upon þín walle,
Blæc fyne ond molde,
Swamm ond þá swarrinias.
Mín wēste cyćenan.
How to remember when it’s bin day
Try to stick to what you can control; your thoughts and your actions
To me we’re all one but you separate us into factions
Sing a song, you need to speak up, no solace in your silence
When you are attacked, scream loud enough to show your defiance
Argue with yourself, accept it all but don’t let your standards slip
Nature is fierce, let it happen, don’t underestimate it
So here’s what I recommend to you in life my dearest friend
Live in the now, you can finish without tying up loose ends
Mix up your pithy aphorisms with some obvious truths
Disrupt automatic reactions with startling out there blues
Feed everyone in your life, they’ll be happy with bellies full
Relax when on high alert, guard down, let your senses lull
Listen to the rhythm of everything around you, tune in
Listen for the chance to quieten people’s blustering, and win
Acceptance is the key to the door; of the room where there’s peace
Harmony is the piece you play loud; in the space where sounds cease
So go on your way, live for life today, remember bin day
So go on your way, live for life today, remember bin day
Father
Born of great strength
A gentleness to penetrate the coldest heart
From childlike naivety
Grows unconditional empathy
Responsibility and passion
Are opposite sides of the same coin
Quietly a guardian rises
Out of the ashes of his ancestors
An enormous oak
Cultivated from the most nurtured seed
A touch from the greatest roughness
Softly crafts unending compassion
The patient gardener
Is a master of continuous life giving water
The precise touch
Of calloused hands builds a safe sanctuary
Those who are used to the dark
Illuminate the path for loved ones
In the black void
Glow the eyes of the warmest love
Cold endurance
Softens the sound of ten thousand sirens
The greatest emotions one experiences
Often come from great physical prowess
The softness of the most effective caregiver
Can be as hard and full of potential as uncarved wood
So when you are cold and numb
When you are dense and unyielding
When you sit alone in the dark
You may be developing qualities
Of the mother of all things
The Alarms That Ring True (Pithy Aphorism #1337)
Hey why is your voice getting louder and louder?
Are you ok? Do you want some help?
Silence will not change the world but please don’t deafen me.
I know this is not a quiet time for internal reflection,
So I will listen and I will be your mirror.
Truth will eventually win but the difficult part is lies are often louder.
So let the change come with a reasonable volume
Made of a great number of gentle voices, mirror upon mirror.
Let’s make it happen like it was done by nature itself
Like it was destined all along
Sound is born of silence
Brilliant light is born in the dark
DJ
Spin the black circles like a hypnotist
Keep me moving through the night
A beat worthy of Borscht
And sounds like puppet strings
I want to dance
Festive fever
Unbroken trance
Under your spell
I am an animal dancing
One of a select few
Beautiful Jin And Jun
Golden leaves like needles
The finest tips of springtime
Water a few minutes off the boil
You make everything better
Steep after steep
The flavour keeps climbing
You travelled far from Tongmu village
Nestled in the Wuyi mountains
A long way down the Silk Road
You fell into my teapot
Brew after brew
A potion for my headache
The Grey City
Drab grey concrete shared by pigeons and starlings
People bustling through in close proximity
The sky is closing in, says my feelings
Rain starts as I navigate anxiety
Some say they miss the comfort of feeling sad
That the sun never breaks the numb hazy clouds
With lies and conspiracy I don’t feel mad
This medicated daze is the fog that shrouds
Greyscale reality blurs what’s real and not
A new bold extension of my colourblind eyes
Despite this I now feed the pigeons a lot
In this overcast city you can hear my cries
Eclipse in the city
The city of the moon makes me smile
It really spreads my cheeks for a while
Darkness soaks through my skin to the bone
As I let rip upon my throne
Day/Night Kisscatch
Shadows dance in the morning light
Patterns on my wall for the cat
Chasing dreams outside the cave
I sit in stillness a lot now
Watching things move is a prison
Movement happens in pitch darkness
Gratitude that the sun still burns
Locked in, my sight sets me free
Roofing
In the library water is coming through the ceiling
Shhh! Weight of water is on my mind
It’s quiet enough to think clearly here, for a short time
Before I swim back home through the rain
Home is full of music and distraction from constant hums
The house feels heavy it might cave in
Under piles of rubble and possessions I am still the same
Just now I’m wet through without a roof
I’m Dizzy With Grief
My head spins like black plastic
Songs and tunes play in my mind
Stand up I feel dizzy
Lie down I feel much worse
Like unrooted trees I fall
In the winds of your soft breath
I see double flowers
I smell your long gone scent
I’m under your spell, falling
For your ideas of balanced thought
I weep for time we lost
Tears drop down to the ground
It’s bin day and it’s raining
The songs I wrote are playing
You don’t dance anymore
This steady beat does nothing
Prepare For The Worst (Poet In The World)
Can I relax?
I need something to drink
Taps have run dry
Without water no tea
Smash! Goes my mug
I’m so tired of praise
Feelings can wait
I need a cup of tea
Third times the charm
Biscuit tin empty again
I cannot see
What I’ll eat with my tea
I’ll go shopping
For my elevenses
Must satisfy
My need for snacks and tea
At last an idea
Thank the gods for my flask
Prepared yesterday
At last I drink my tea!
Three 4am haiku
When it all comes down
What’s left in your empty brain
Anything you dream
—-
What are you scared of?
Effects of humanity?
Be an animal
—-
Pour tea bath water
Into your favourite cup
Drink the benefits
Idiosyncratic Imagery (work in progress)
One final drink together under the placid moon
You died in my arms that night next to the still lake
Soon after the carefree clouds gathered below the heavens
Above strands of grass, willow trees and fallen flower petals
Farewell my friend, I will take the advice of many fine poets
And become a lonesome traveller on winter’s everlasting road
I’ll walk up the hills away from my ancestral hometown
Missing the bonds forged when I found you crying in the boudoir
Travelling across seas I feel a meloncholy motion rock me to sleep
This boat sailing north amid the dramatic snowfall
The wild geese flying above send me messages of home
Lost in a bubble in the night sky I awaken from this dream
So then, awake I find you, my friend, alive and well
My joy ploclaimed at length from atop the ancient fortress
Fate builds and abandons me as I reflect above the motionless lake
With you by my side, my love, near the city of spring
My Far Away Saviour
Lower me a hook to save me from the uncertainty
Give me the ultimate happy ending to believe in
Bribe me with charity and sell me your dreams guarantee
Scare me with torture if I don’t follow your rules therein
I’ve got much closer to heaven with each day that passes
But dreams of heaven will be for nought the day that I die
My part will end but life goes on for the countless masses
What are the lies you tell yourself to get to sleep and why?
We have the threats, the hypocrisy, the narcissism
The generational authority passed down with glee
Black and white sins of a greyscale world lest criticism
Violence and bloodshed in Gods name that stains history
So what now can save me? Hope from family or a friend
The virtue of doing my best even if that’s not a lot
Radical acceptance for my existence till the end
Emptying the mind and being grateful for what I’ve got
A Gifted Power: Your Ancient Childlike Wisdom
The look on your face, your raw emotion
The light in your eyes, your divine delight
I miss this the most, the parts you gave me
I would do it all, to see you again
The biggest heart, never ending smile
Pure sparkling joy, I’ll never forget
The calm I felt, when you were around
It’s part of me, mine forevermore
I promise to try my best to pass on your gift like you did to me.
The Girl Is A Fighter
My friend once boxed a kangaroo in the desert!
She got punched in the face but fought strong through the hurt.
A week after the fight she beat a tough black belt.
One so big he could crush a nut with his force dealt.
It was a mighty battle but she had quick speed!
She punched him in the mouth so hard, he had his feed.
Like a weightless ballerina she defeated him.
Used his power against him, she knocked him out dim!
The champion of the world, her heat like the sun,
Shone through the desert, kangaroo, and everyone!
Teatime Haiku
What’s for tea tonight?
Stomach rumbles inside me.
Food will do the job!
3 Verses For The Day
What is hiding in your face?
Behind the mask of disgrace.
Unlocked by a soul embrace.
Shines out with a smile in place.
———————
Don’t look for everything, on one certain path.
All paths are stitched from fragments of time.
Walk where your feet are now, whatever your path.
Everything‘s always there, all of the time.
———————
Watch, curled up cat sleeps
Not of this world are his dreams
I’ll join him tonight
What are you up to?
What is everyone doing at any given time?
I want to ask the whole wide world what they are thinking,
And how they feel?
It’s not about me.
What do you want from your life and how can I help you?
Can I feel the way you feel and would that share the load?
Put it like this,
It’s not about me.
Do you want some time to yourself and space to relax?
I know you don’t need me but know that I’m here for you.
Feel better soon,
It’s not about me.
Can I share some hope just by listening to you talk?
Hearing you help yourself is sweet music to my ears.
Turn on the light.
It’s not about me.
Does existence realise we’re on a rock in space?
Shared with animals, plants, and lots of little atoms,
Each doing things.
It’s not about me.
The Cost Of Living
Trapped lone solace in captivity
Isolated mind specifically
Locked in, cold, naked, and so, so bored
Wet, shivering, sitting, and ignored
Bankrupt and starving, getting older
Always in pain, a frozen shoulder
Can’t move, everything’s grey, give over
Can’t hear, it’s all too much, moreover
The silence is too loud, a dark shroud
Hanging around, a leaden cloud, proud
Of no one and nothing, my ears ring
The birds don’t sing, my cat’s dead play thing
Lukewarm tea, miles away from the sea
My friends flee, overlooking my plea
Long lost glee, hope gone, I cannot see
I’ve lost thee, hopeless, she set me free
Tea
I live for you, Clem, and tea.
I will not hear of stern words said against the tea.
With crossed spears and bashing on shields!
With whipped fervour and impetuous rage!
With uncontrollable unconscious uninhibited!
With audacious actions of high powered regret!
I will not hear of stern words said against the tea.
For I live for tea, Clem, and thee!
You are loved
I am writing this to you
Even though you feel poo
To let you know
And try to show
You are loved
Soon you will feel better
So read carefully every letter
You might not feel it now
But I promise you somehow
You are loved
Bad times don’t last forever
Hold tight, never say never
Together we can get through
Me, you, and cats too
You are loved
It’s ok to feel bad
Or had, mad, or sad
With hope we can see
A bright future to be
And remember you are loved
Sleep paralysis in wet weather
Laying in bed a forsaken fleeting feeling lingers
A heavy humid dread sitting on my chest
The weight of an extinguished wheeze
Pain from a thousand unwanted thoughts
The tick of a clockwork existential death threat
A days worth of bottled rage bubbling up from my gut
Parallels with processes of wrong uns
An unwanted empathy for the worst of the worst
Alone at night in the dark with nothing but a million voices
Carrying all kinds of criticism and conflicting neurosis
Nothing to calm the nerves but the falling rain
But even the most burdensome troubles can get washed away
My Tekken Career By Kelsey
Fighting is difficult
The system is rigged
The children are vulnerable
They climb a never ending mountain
To grasp at stars always out of reach
Endless paperwork
The trust don’t have faith
The kids are at risk
Set up to fail on their journey
Some destined to fall through the gaps
This fight is more than a video game, it’s life
The Roots of Growth
Living in the soil is a little worm
Breaking up the earth for roots to grip
The sun beats down on all the leaves
The rain helps give the plants life
Growing plants is therapeutic
Sometimes you get nice crisp apples
It is useful to get support to grow
As a plant and as a person
That is why Kelsey is helping me write
To catalogue and process mental growth
I am grateful for all the help I’ve received
To become who I want to be
I am not a worm I feel like a plant in the soil
I just need help sending down my roots
My pet, Death (rewrite this at some point)
Inevitable, he will stop at nothing
Killer of legacies, destroyer of lineage
The gift our mothers gave us will expire
Resistance is futile
He arrives peacefully in your sleep
An end to the experience
A creator of ghostly memories
But what is a memory when there is no one to remember it?
He stalks our every second of existence
Ready to pounce on a moments misfortune
Roots always reach downwards
To keep us fed until is time for terror from above
He is a faithful companion
Agile, like swift retribution
Not always fair
To him it is sport
Those in control amplify his effects
The ever diminishing resources
Fire erupts in his steadfast gaze
Like his heat that will consume us all
Every Drop Matters
A column of water from the tap
Falls down past the sink bowl into the gap
Glugs in the drain through the trap
And back up again to the gutters wrap
Drop to the sewer a waste of water
Dilutes a foul mix towards the sorter
At the treatment plant works her daughter
Helping recycle like she taught her
Overflow the sewage because it’s raining
Cry do the bosses as investment is waining
Not for lack of profit sustaining
The wealth of the richest always obtaining
Nationalise it so the profits rebuild
The infrastructure and talent so skilled
Repair it where damage got spilled
And improve it all as payments fulfilled
The Ever Expanding Universe
I don’t know much
The more I know
The more I don’t
The ever expanding universe
Fixing a 12 Year Old Laptop Is Therapeutic
Fixing a 12 year old laptop is therapeutic
I hope the octogenarian owner will enjoy using Linux
A new lease of life for a dying machine
And for it’s owner’s technological twilight
I like shapes
Circle circle circle circle circle
Oblong oblong oblong oblong
Triangle triangle triangle
Octohedron octohedron
Wiggly bezier polygon
Boing!
The Sink The Sink The Sink The Sink The Sink
Clear water flows down my sink
if it’s not blocked
or the bowl’s in
Patterned dishes pile up on the side
if I’ve tidied up
or I am lazy
Chrome tap drips very slightly all day
if the hosepipe adapter
or other is on
Silent clock doesn’t tick in this house
if I’m staying here
or I go crazy
The air feels clear today
Mackerel skies patterned
Chrome feels laggy
My laptop is silent
Tick tock goes the clock
In my parent’s house
Or in at my Grandparent’s
I am suffering here
A slow walk down the lane.
One foot in front of the other.
A steady plod to escape your mind.
See less, hear less, think less.
Let yourself disappear.
Tool Assisted Poetry – The day ChatGPT tried to write for me
In a tapestry of vibrant diversity, we find,
Bound by shared humanity, hearts aligned.
Together we stand, breaking barriers confined,
Embracing differences, unity enshrined.
In a symphony of colours, we unite,
Honouring uniqueness, with radiance bright.
For every voice resonates, shining light,
In this grand mosaic, love takes flight.
Let prejudice crumble, injustice fades away,
As empathy and compassion hold sway.
For in our shared journey, we strive each day,
A world where acceptance has the final say.
No divisions shall hinder our united stride,
But solidarity and respect, side by side.
With open hearts, bridges we build wide,
Harbouring the worth of each life’s pride.
Let kindness be the language we employ,
A force that transcends, bringing lasting joy.
With every heartbeat, harmonise we shall enjoy,
A world where equality we all employ.
In this ode to togetherness, we convey,
The strength of bonds that guide our way.
With unwavering spirit, let’s ignite,
A future where inclusivity shines bright.
Tomorrow
Your voice made me collapse
Into your arms, into your heart
Your words brought me to the end
Of all my hatred and all my cruelty
One day you’ll walk through my door
One day we’ll suffer no more
On some level, in some way, we can make that day today
With hope we can take all of our unhappiness away
Your unhinged laughter made me doubt
All the false certainties holding me back
Your survivors spirit made me sad
That I had not met you earlier
One day I’ll stop striving to be
One day we’ll be you and me
On some level, in some way, we can make that day today
With hope and pride we can take all of our unhappiness away
Rhymes
Rhymes fucking suck
They just make it cheesy
But once I had luck
And they particularly pleased me
No End In View
My boat on your shoreline
Called in for a while
Wavering emotions
A glimpse of your smile
Oil stains the water
Rainbows in the air
Hearts won’t stop beating
Whenever you are there
Growing attachment
With soil and sun
I look below
To the rain undone
Time will have a say
And salt and the sea
But nothing bad remains
Between you and me
The clock ticks are metered
Afloat by the coast
Met up in secret
I love you the most
Trees drowning in tar
Caught in a trap
You’re clinging to roots
Nurture your chap
You personify water
I’m buoyant around you
Soon countdown to zero
With no end in view
Ice Cap Suicide
April showers and unseasonal snow have turned last autumn’s leaves to stems and mud.
Droplets in my beard and the spray of salt whet my appetite for a seaside treat.
Black sand under my nails is like a manifestation of yesterday’s social media chatter.
Irritating like the effect the bobbing of the boats on the violent spring tide.
The door bangs from a through draft.
The sound of drums for my next song.
A woosh of smoke comes from an open window
Leaving an aroma I can’t describe.
The breakwater serves its purpose but one day will be breached.
The gas bubbling up from a leak of international importance.
The sand turns to glass in the heat.
The glass melts like the ice that I didn’t ask for in my drink.
I feel cold and it is getting dark.
Less hair under my cap each day
No consequences for me but we will all face what is coming.
More rain and a swell wall of water washing away our past and all of our misdemeanours.
Not cleansed but destroyed.
A hollow shell of our former selves.
I pick up a stone from the beach to keep
But that thievery will kill the hardy trees that line the cliff here.
I feel empty at night.
For all the soft power
Only the brittle and broken remain.
Gone are my dreams tonight.
Gone are my dreams tomorrow.
Your Regular Support
The broken pieces of my life held together by plenty of red tape.
The pale sudden flicker of wholesome humanity against the glorious majesty of the universe.
Everything’s going on.
But you are the focus of my crimson dreams.
The finite resources depleted and the planet’s impending destruction.
The freedoms we have abused. The disrespect shown. We might be too far gone to stop now.
Nothing else matters.
Except you and me and our scarlet vision.
The regulations we set are there for a reason.
The forces at work in universe are too big to understand. The powers on Earth too finite to avoid control. Life in the red.
People fallen to corruption.
Is human organisation destined to fail?
Not when there is hope and love. Repeated and underlined. Repeated and unlined. So grateful for your regular support.
A Girl I Look Up To
In a haze considering every thought and feeling she ever had.
Loving me more than a helpless pet on the street.
Appreciating the highest but lifting the lowest of art.
Queen of the clouds, even her sarcastic scowl envelops the sky.
Quietly spoken she said to me that only the fierce survive.
She smelled like a familiar indescribable aroma.
Standing next to me she looked like a million rainbow sighs.
Her touch felt like a teardrop on my lips.
The softest fluffy grey cardigan hung on her shoulders.
Dressed to kill all the badness in the neighbourhood.
She’s tired but gives life to the trees and grass and the moss.
She’s the rain and these days she’s crying all the time.